HEARTLESS by Crystal S. Jacobs

I've loved and loved so much
but now it seem to not truly mean much
because now I'm heartless and cold to the touch

For a long time my heart has been sore
I just gave up, I can't do this anymore
Now my heart has stopped beating
My desire for love has faded & been defeated
I've lost my pulse
Now I really don’t seem care much because I’ve lost

At this point, no one is able to approach me
fuck what you got to say
you got to show me
Trust me, I’m so analytical
I’ll know if you really don’t love me

I've become cold,
my blood flow has froze
I feel like no one deserves the love I once had before

When I speak, I'm liable to give you the chills
I've changed, Yeah,
Only if looks could kill
No one can begin to imagine how I feel
You'll never meet another chick this real

I’m dying without the need to function
but I'm living life with this dysfunction
fuck that,
I refuse to blame myself for this mass destruction

I try and I try because love was something I once desired
but now my thoughts are so sharp, it'll cut you like barb wire
my heartache will burn you like an electric fire
and my neglect will make you feel like a feen without a supplier
this shit I talk will make you wiser and take you higher.

Take a look at my recent writing abilities,
how the hell I go from being polite and passionate, to using profanity
I'm starting to feel like a innocent criminal
in need of a plea of insanity
I don't know what the fuck has gotten into me


Just maybe in due time
I’ll have love that will make my heart melt
And help defrost my cold nature in ways I’ve never felt
But in the meantime,
I will not sigh
And I will no longer cry
I’ve only come to realize that I’ve only
Got me, myself, and I

TO BE CONTINUED……………….

by: Crystal S Jacobs

Copyright © 2009 by Crystal S. Jacobs

The 80/20 Rule!

Throughout our lives we’ve heard them all, love is like heaven but can hurt like hell….love is blind….love is a two way street….blah blah blah, but now we have one that makes PERFECT sense the 80/20 rule and for those who strangely don’t know of this rule here it is.

But the 80/20 rule, made more famous now by the Tyler Perry Movie “Why Did I Get Married?” is in reference to love. That in love and/or relationship you ONLY get about 80% of what you need from your mate. Sometimes we meet someone who has that other 20% that we’re not getting and the 20% looks real good, but if you trade your 80% for that 20%, then you’ll really see how good you had it. When we lack something in a relationship both guys and girls take different approaches to filling that void.

A female can withstand more “lack” in a relationship than a guy. The love game is VOID. 75% of guys are liars and fronters and the spotlight is out. Guys will dead a relationship if he doesn’t like the way a female eat, while a female will stay with a guy throughout numerous faults & flaws, WHY? Because if a female sees one ONLY one trait to which she admires she will deal how many times have you spoke or heard a female complain about her dude for hours and hours only to say “BUT” he does do this right. Most often a female never finds her 80 just replaces it with whatever it takes for her to deal.

Guys search around for “perfection” while we continue to not perfect our selves. How can we expect males to have they shit together if we don’t. None of us are perfect but everyday is suppose to be a improvement of the last, your 80 can be your 100 if we all motivate & support one another. Many times we leave a relationship forgetting that some people need to be taught to love or how to even be in a relationship. We want perfection out the GATE but how realistic is that???